This week has been a little interesting. I should’ve known on Monday, when I changed my plan for the week that things would end up completely different than I expected. If you have yet to notice, I did not post anything on Wednesday. Things are starting to get a little crazier. We are now in a push to sell as much as we can and get our bags packed. It is currently one week from leaving. The selling of everything seems to always be a huge hassle. You put your stuff up for sale, people call, say they will show up, you wait and they never show up. This follows with either random excuses or no reply. Not to mention all the people who instantly see your ad and want to take like 50% off of the price. Luckily, I’ve been able to sell a few things. The car is the biggest part now. We are in the process of learning how to transfer a loan and make sure we don’t have to pay to have the car taken back. It is rather frustrating. The whole car topic is frustrating. I’m giving up my beautiful BMW X3 for a $@!#*$#@ Opel. That was exactly the one thing in the world that I never wanted to have and this will be our car in Germany. At least, I didn’t buy it. I don’t plan to put any of my money into it, even if it needs gas. lol It’s ugly, it will be uncomfortable and it will move slower than a tortoise trying to walk backwards.
I’m sorry, that was kind of a rant and an aggressive one at that. Things are getting stressful. I’m getting a little more nervous by the day. Misha had his last health examination prior to the flight. The vet said that she wants to do an ultra sound on his heart to make sure it is 100% okay. She said there was a little bit of abnormality to his heart beat but his heart was racing, since he was super nervous. She told me she didn’t hear it when it started to slow down. I just want him to be fine. I can’t handle losing my kitty. All my boyfriend has to say is “it’s just a damn cat.”. Not to me! He is my Misha and I love him. That’s why he is coming to Germany. I will talk to them again when I pick up the papers plus listen to his heart myself, while he’s calm to see if I hear anything.
The shipping of the stuff is also more complicated than we thought. Christian went to the UPS website and they said one box, of 50 pounds, would be about $350. He went into the store and they told him to expect more towards $750, plus he has to buy the box. I personally think that is complete false advertisement. Oh well, it has to be done. Now I know that anything in this box must not be anything I need from day one. So I’ll have to transfer some of my clothes or something to this box, from my luggage, to allow for a couple notebooks and other things to be there.
My living space feels like a disaster. I notice that the more stressed I get, the more disorganised I get. It’s so amazing because when I worked, the more stressed I was, the more I focused on staying organised to keep things as much in control as possible but in my personal life I am a total slob. The more stressed I get, the more of a disaster everything becomes. There is just stuff everywhere and it’s driving me crazy. I have so much to get in control and about a week to do it. It makes me wonder how I will do it. Somehow, I always come through but I don’t know how I will pull it off. Christian will be bring more things to my house and it will only add to the insanity here.
The interesting thing about this whole process is that you are working towards something but it doesn’t quite feel like a reality. I had this when we went to Tahiti too. I was packing stuff to go there but it never felt like it would be a reality. It was though and it was an amazing experience that I had wanted to do since I was like 20. It always seems like things stay the same though. Everything you are used to and everything that you’ve always known is still there. The feeling that all this will suddenly change in a matter of 12 hours doesn’t quite phase you. It still doesn’t seem like it’s happening. It feels like I’m just going about my days, doing what’s on my to do lists. This week started to feel a little bit different. I’m starting to feel the emotions here and there. Like with my trainer, he mentioned that it was our last session and it was hard to think about. I’ve been training, every Tuesday, with him since August. That’s 8 months. It’s funny to think that I pay this guy to cause me several days of pain per week, yet I keep going back, regardless of how sore I am afterwards. I’m really going to miss our sessions and talking to him. He was nice enough to offer one last session, if I could find time during my last week, on him. I think I’m going to take it. He’s been awesome and fun. If you live in Michigan, in the metro Detroit area, I highly recommend Pierre at Lifetime Fitness, in Canton. I’ve lost 40 pounds working with him so far!
There are so many things running through my head. I’m just starting to get nervous. I’m from a tiny Midwest town, in Michigan, over an hour away from either Lansing, Detroit or Flint. I’m in the middle of nowhere and that’s how it has been most of my life. It’s kind of mind blowing to think about moving to the fourth largest city in Germany. I sometimes struggle to sleep at my boyfriends apartment in the Detroit suburbs because of all the noise. I wonder if I’ll adjust to Cologne. I don’t think I’ve had a problem any of the times I’ve been there but I don’t remember. I wonder how I will adjust to the European lifestyle. I’m sure I will miss home, no doubt. I wonder what it will be like trying to do my daily activities with broken German and not knowing several words. I hate the fact that I understand much of the conversations in German but miss some details, yet I have a hard time coming up with what I want to say in German. It kind of makes me feel stupid, especially when my boyfriend can jump between both languages. I wonder if I will find a job and, if so, what will I be doing since I’m not fluent. I wonder how the cat will handle everything and how I will make sure he doesn’t jump out of the windows of the apartment because Europeans don’t have screens on their windows.
There are a lot of “I wonders”. This will be the first time in my life I’ve lived with someone else, other than my family. I’ve never lived with a boyfriend before so this is a huge step for our relationship. I suppose if we survive this then we can survive anything. I just know that he is obsessive compulsive and, as I said earlier, I can be a total slob. He’s never owned a pet before and he will be living with my cat. Christian has also never lived with a girlfriend before so it is new to him too. I just hope it all works out. I’d hate to find out, in that kind of way, that it doesn’t work because it will become an extremely expensive break up. Don’t take this the wrong way though. If we didn’t have confidence in what we have, then we wouldn’t be doing this. It’s just uncharted territory for both of us so we will learn along the way, how to live together.
Besides my nerves about everything coming up, there is still a lot that needs to be done. I still have to contact Verizon to have my phone unlocked. I have clothes to sell for consignment. I have other things to donate. I still have several belongings to sell. I have to make the final updates to my luggage and things I want to ship. I have to organise my binders with all of my accounts and bills. We have to sell the BMW. Christian also has to sell his car and several belongings. I need to see the doctor and pick up my 90 day prescription. I have bills that I still haven’t paid. I have to meet up with people to say bye. I have to go to the state USDA office to endorse the cat’s paperwork. I have to see what I can carry on to the plane, in addition to the cat. We have to get a rental car and transfer all of Christian’s stuff to my house. I really need to consider working on my German during this whole process. I haven’t had much time to do so though. I need to prepare everything in the house for me to be gone for a while. I need to teach my mom how to Skype. I think this list can go on and on of all the things that need to be done. All this and all in under a week.
So, what does this mean for the website? It actually didn’t occur to me that the move would interfere with the operation of Life with Aniela. It is though. I’ve been thinking a lot about it. There are some revisions and some things I want to change about the website, based on feedback. I want to fix the issue with the recipe code, even if this means dropping the plugin that I was using. It’s not my issue their stuff doesn’t work. I want to better understand what I am focusing on here. I am focusing on a lot here. It’s mostly as an update to my friends and family, at the moment, but what I have here, I want to be concise with. I know that I have my move to Germany. I’m sharing my recipes and I’m doing an update on my weight loss plus sharing my tips of how I did it. I do follow social media and I’ve noticed some huge blasts agains some of the blogs out there, in some of these areas. This leads me to wanting to make sure that when I post some of my tips for health and fitness that I want to be precise. I don’t want to go on and talk about something without giving the full facts. A lot of blogs are highly criticised for this. I have 8 years of college behind me and I don’t want to make this mistake so I want to make sure I fully research everything, as much as possible, before I put it out. From now on, I think it is wise to limit my posts. At first, I liked the idea of two recipes per week and a health post but I want to use the next few weeks to think of how it fits into my schedule, especially since I’m also trying to reenter the job market, as an engineer again. I will give this some thought and update everything as needed. Like always, I will let everyone know what’s going on. I just want to do what’s best for this page and for me. I like the idea that it’s mostly for friends and family right now but I also want to expand my reach and share this with other people, who’ve also shared the same struggles. Just be prepared, over the next few weeks, my posts may be sporadic and unplanned but most of all, I want to preserve the content. I don’t want to put out junk.